I had this week all mapped out. Who I was meeting, where I was meeting, and how I was getting there. In 12 hours, God decided “Mmmmmm, NOPE!” It ALL fell apart. Which leaves me with a wide open week. ….just sitting here, God. You have a plan for me, I’m sure… *tapping fingers and humming a tune*….
In case you haven’t picked up on this I’m wrong again. Faith is sitting here waiting for God to show me what to do. “God will give me that open door.” But BELIEF means that I’m not sitting here like a bump on a log. During the Bible study today I was tasked to read Romans 4 in its entirety. Verses 21-24 gave me a jolt.
I like this version. In many versions of the Bible, the word persuaded is used instead of convinced. I prefer the word convinced, because it’s final. If I’m persuaded to start exercising and lay off the doughnuts and Diet Dr. Pepper, then my sneaky brain just as easily becomes UN-persuaded. But if I’m convinced, then I’m determined. It’s final. If I’m fully persuaded that God can do it, then I’m still leaving that ever-so-slight sliver of unbelief. But if I’m fully convinced, then I KNOW it, I FEEL it, and I HOLD onto it. To me, persuaded is at a level of faith. Convinced means I totally and unequivocally BELIEVE all that God can and will do for me.
So, now to apply what I’ve learned. I have to get moving with a direction. He’s got this. Now comes the hard part. It’s like the walk I took with my adorable Lab, Axel. Axel is a friendly 2-year-old dog who has grown up on our 5 acre farm doing fun puppy stuff unencumbered. Because we’re getting ready for the move, I’ve been taking him to a local park and walking him on a leash around the pond. Yesterday, he caught a scent of something that got his motor running. He followed that scent for about a third of a mile. He was so excited! He was SO excited with the scent, that he never raised his head to see around him. He completely walked past two mallard ducks who were the cause of scent. Missed it. It reminded me of how I can be so focused on having enough faith in God, that I don’t look up. I have faith in the gifts that God has given me, but not enough belief to fully see what those gifts could accomplish. How many mallard ducks have I missed? Now that I’m on the scent, I’m not going to miss it if I can help it.