It’s been a tough couple of weeks. I’ve cried lots of tears for lots of different reasons. I didn’t struggle with faith during it all. But I found myself saying, “I’m not going to ask God why. It’s His reason and His business.” The other night I watched Chris Stapleton sing this song, and found myself crying again. “Don’t go asking Jesus why. The answer belongs to the By And By.” You don’t have to say the words. God knows the feelings already. Every one of my tears are numbered.
As with everything God leads me to, it all comes back in circles. I started a new Bible study with Beth Moore. I’ve done other studies, but lately she is really grabbing me by the collar and shaking me. I didn’t realize how much of a slap upside the head I needed. For those who don’t know, Beth Moore studies are in-depth word studies with a lot of dissected emotions. Believing God is the study I chose. Naturally, God smacked me with the word “faith” today. Beth informs us that the Greek word pistis is used in the New Testament to define assurance, belief, faith and fidelity. She says, “Where I use the phrase believing God, you can think of it interchangeably with having faith in God. I prefer believing… because it has a far stronger implication of action.”
If I lost you, let me bring this back again. Faith and Belief are identical. Synonyms. But Belief has more weight. Having faith in God is not as strong as BELIEVING that God is, was, and always will be. I had faith over the last two weeks that God was in control, that He knows what he’s doing. But if I had truly BELIEVED, then I wouldn’t need to voice that question of why. That hurts. Let’s just go ahead and rip off that bandage (and I’m talking figuratively because yanking my bandage off HURTS!) I have faith that God exists. Completely. What I need Hebrews 11:1 for is to rationalize Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Saying 3 parts of 1, and BELIEVING in 3 parts in 1 is…. well… it’s just beyond my comprehension
And THAT led me to my devotional reading of the REST of Hebrews 11. I got gobsmacked!
Yup. I’m in that “as some are in the habit of doing” category. I have to Believe Him when he says “GO BACK TO CHURCH!” And that encouraging one another? Yeah need to work on that too.
So, I guess what I’m saying is this: faith is understanding where I am right now, God is in control. Belief is knowing that I have to take a step, and God still is in control. Faith is sitting on my butt. Believing means I have to move forward and do some stuff, and THAT is what being a Christian is supposed to be all about…. isn’t it?